Have you felt like everytime you feel any form of happiness, something ends up going wrong.
Well, guess what 😳 you are not alone.
I feel like its this rollercoaster ride that we seemed constantly stuck on. We don’t really feel stable, its either a slow difficult ride up just to come down so fast that you feel like the sky swallowed all your organs.
Okay. I may be dramatic. Honestly, that is the way I feel life is. Constant ups and downs, you barely get a moment to catch your breathe or even come to terms with situations that are happening.
I have been told thats just the way life is, but does it have to feel so exhausting all the time.
I mean, you are paralysed in bed by your anxiety but responsibilities still need your attention which just increases your anxiety even more.
You might be on this extreme high where you feel you could conquer the world and do everything at once to the point you burn out but you don’t realise it until you come crashing down again.
See, so exhausting.
This happens everyday. All day. All the time.
The other night, my mind asked me, “yo! You awake? We still haven’t talked about that shelf you said you were going to clean last year. Oh yes, what about that time you yelled at that client on the phone 6 years ago over something I don’t even remember.”
Even after my pleas to let us sleep, it continues; “remember that conversation you had with that person that used to be your friend but now doesn’t like you because of what you said. Yeah, that’s why people don’t like you.”
It has gotten to a point where both my highs and lows could happen on the same day. So exhausted all I do is cry through out the day and feel agitated.
I really wish I could give others a solution to deal with any with this. I can’t, I am barely handling it myself.
But isn’t that why we are here, talk about healing thoughts with Bounty.
Unfortunately, today was not so encouraging but always remember to be kind to yourself even through the hard times too.